My name is Jessica, and I’m a Scorpio.
And now for some rare insight into my inner psyche…
For the majority of my life, I have had to come to terms that I am pretty much the epitome of my astrological sun sign. My rising sign and moon sign are both Leo, which probably accounts for that I’m-an-introvert-who-wants-to-be-an-extrovert thing I have going on, but for the most part: I am Scorpio.
The majority of people I have come into contact with who know anything about Scorpios automatically are wary of me. Apparently, Scorpios have a bad rep.
I will preface this by saying there is at least one Scorpio trait that I do not think I have. Scorpios are supposed to be vengeful when they are wronged (that whole Scorpion’s tail thing). I may have been this way when I was a lot younger, but I definitely am not now. Unfortunately, I think I have actually turned into more of a doormat. I lost my stinger a long time ago.
So, I present to you things that I hate most about being a Scorpio:
First, Scorpios are secretive. True, I don’t like people knowing everything about me, especially upon first meeting me. I ask more questions than I answer. However, due to being so true to my sign, it’s pretty easy to determine my personality. All you have to do is google ‘Scorpio’. This irks me. (Yet, here I am, writing this post.)
Second, Scorpios are obsessive. Honestly, this is probably the thing I hate most. Why must I obsess over every little thing? I blow everything out of proportion, read into things way too much, and am completely distracted by my thoughts on one particular subject (whatever my current obsession is) 99% of the time. This can be a hobby, a song, a person, it’s not just limited to one thing. The flip side to this, and something I like, is that I’m passionate about things.
Scorpio is one of the Fixed signs. While this is usually a good thing and means that I finish things I start, the downside to this is I have a hard time letting go of things that I should have let go of a long time ago. It also means I’m really, really stubborn and refuse to take no for an answer (not a good combo with the obsessive quality I mentioned above).
Scorpio is one of the Water signs. This basically means that I’m emotional. Anyone who knows me, knows how emotional I am. It’s very annoying. While Scorpios can also be very analytical, they are pretty much entirely ruled by emotion. I was trying to describe to Ben one day the constant war that goes on between my logical side and my emotional side and how the emotional side of me almost always wins, despite my logical side usually having the more compelling argument. This is why I have to tell my friends to stop me if I ever try to do something that I said I wasn’t going to do. I may logically know that I shouldn’t do something, but my emotion gets in the way and overrides me sometimes. The plus side of being a Water sign is that I can be very empathic. Of course, this sometimes means that I cry when watching the news. (I seriously cried for like three days straight when James Kim’s body was found. And when that guy was beheaded on that Greyhound up in Canada.)
But, before you start to hate all Scorpios (as some people apparently do), I would also like to mention things I like:
Scorpios are very loyal. While this can be a bad thing (as I’ve been known to stay friends with people who aren’t the nicest to me), I think it’s usually a pretty good quality to have.
The aforementioned passion. Sure, I’ve gotten into many a heated argument with someone who disagreed with my opinion on something (or, even worse, when I know I had my facts right and the other person was just WRONG), but I think it’s good thing to have passion about things. And I am very passionate about pretty much everything: my friends, my family, my likes, my dislikes. “Passion” is Scorpio’s key word. To quote AstrologyZone, “One Scorpio once said to me that passion was the single most important ingredient in life, that is, to be passionate about one’s loved ones, one’s career, one’s lifestyle, for without passion, what kind of life would we have in the end? Well said!”
Scorpio’s intuition. I can usually tell if I’m going to get along with someone like a second after meeting them. I can read people really well, and when I can’t, I just get annoyed and move on (usually). There is one obvious downside to this. I can tell if I really like someone well before they feel the same way, so I have a tendency to come on strong and scare people off. Oh, well. Who wants to be around people who scare easily, anyway?
My eyes. Scorpios are well known for their eyes. I’m fairly certain the only people I can lose staring contests to are other Scorpios. Most people have problems with holding my gaze. I also have incredible control over my eyes and can pretty much choose for them to reflect any feeling I want. I’ve had other Scorpios tell me that people have always said stuff about their eyes, but never really understood what they were talking about until they met me. I have no idea where I originally found this, but: “Don’t even both trying to identify a Scorpio. If a Scorpion is attracted to you, they will search you out. Your first hint will be the pair of hypnotic eyes that scrutinize you from head to toe. The Scorpio will then decide whether you will be accepted or rejected. Flirting is useless with a Scorpio. Scorpion’s want and demand loyalty, devotion and true passion.”
Speaking of flirting….this is actually something I like about myself sometimes and sometimes I don’t. I hate flirting. I mean, it’s fun, sometimes. But it’s so completely pointless. Just get to the point. I hate mind games, like playing hard-to-get. Just say what you feel and mean it. I hate feeling pressured into having to play these stupid games when I’m dating. They just make me lose interest and think that someone is fake. If you’re going to make me guess if you like me or not, I’m just going to assume that you don’t and go away. You know, unless you happen to fall into a current obsession. And then I’ll just be stubborn and annoy you until you actually don’t like me. (Or, in some cases, fall in love with me. My personality quirks don’t always fail me.)
But, to sum up, this is me. You can love me or you can hate me. I’m not going to change.